It is hot, it is hot, it is hot.. it is super duper hot. Phew!!!!!

When did Bangalore become like this... like delhi. I dont feel like lifting a finger; even doing that makes you feel as if your entire energy has drained out from that exercise. It is stuffy, stuffy with a capital S. I am so waiting for rains to happen.

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Dear someone, sitting at home is absolutely addictive. I felt the pinch initially.. but now, I am quite enjoying being at home..

Its such a relief -  not having monday morning blues, not having to think about client demands, not having to think about presentations or issues in studies, not having to think about anything in particular about work!

I think I have gotten used to it. Ho hum... and here I was, thinking I will get bored sitting at home.

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I am back in old pair of jeans!!! Happiness is being able to fit into old jeans and absolute joy is to be able to button it. :D

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You will have to excuse my short random unconnected posts... this is how it will be for the next few months, I guess! 

Day 18 and counting

Hello all. Am back. Last 2 weeks.. cant begin to describe it all. Not to worry.. I wont attempt it too.

The monday, 2 mondays ago was the D day. I had a C-section on Monday afternoon - and before you say or think, "how nice I didnt have to go through labour pain".. I went through induced labour for 24 hours before my doc decided on C section. So there! And what can I say about labour pain - everyone goes through their own experience. For me, it was not the pain but the incidentals, the peripherals that troubled me the most.And thats all I am willing to say about it. :)

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Has my life changed - you bet. Am I feeling mom like - errrrr.. to be answered maybe in a month or two. You kind of feel protective and affectionate... she is a little chit of a girl.. a cute bundle that fits into your forearm..she is a really tiny baby... how can one not feel protective or affectionate!!

I live to feed her and change her and wake up with her in the night. And there is no reciprocal feeling whatsoever.

A helps a lot - actually he is the night sentry. Many a nights I sleep during the diaper change. My excuse.. genuine excuse.. I did undergo an operation.. and I cannot jump up to respond to her wails. I am not allowed to either - with both the grandmoms, A, grandad not allowing me to lift a finger - they tell me, feed her, sleep, eat, read. Thats all I am to do. Hrmmmmph.

I am not used to this inactivity. And now you find me back on the blog!! :D

Worklife seems a far off world.

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Havent decided upon a name yet. I have only one week to decide. Its so confusing and such an important decision. Poor thing has to live with whatever I decide for the rest of her life!!

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Today is the first day she is wearing a strappy frock. Joy!!! :)
 
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She looks like me.. I am happy to report. Her face / features have already started changing and now people say she looks like him too. :(( 
 
Her face undergoes some zillion expressions and all within a span of 2 mins. She keeps staring with her big eyes.. I have no idea if she looking at me or at the light. At the light I think. Its good fun to watch her smile, cry and makes faces as she eats multivitamin drops!!! :))
 
And now she is up... Gotta go.
 

It is time

That sounds omnious. Rest assured, I am not.. feeling omnious i.e.

Its tough to describe what I feel. Is it better to know 2 days before that you will deliver.. or should it be sudden.

In the morning, when I did come to know, I was in favour of the latter.. but now.. I am not so sure.

Am I prepared .. No. Mentally.. No Physically.. No.

What makes me more nervous.. the mental bit.. what will I do post Monday! The next 2 days will go.. it is like a night out before an exam or a big presentation. But what about later?

Oh well. Lets take each day as it comes..

What if the baby happens on 14th Feb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time flies fast.. faster..

Suddenly, things have changed for me.

9 months seemed like a looooong loooonnnggg time. But this last week, my doc has completely "transposed"  my world.. if you get what I mean..

I have started taking insulin and just last week, she dropped a bombshell on me. We will deliver you in the 37th week due to this reason, she said. I just stared at her. I couldn't say anything. I was flabbergasted, which is also a mild term for what I am feeling still.

Now for those of you who do not know, my due date was March 2nd. So in my mind, I have been thinking and planning for 1.5 months more. But now my dates are likely to be closer to mid Feb. And that has completely thrown me off balance.

For most of you, it maybe silly. But damn it, we haven't bought our car yet. I don't know what to do with work. What about maid? Absolutely everything on the list is "yet to be done". And no, I cannot be prosaic about it. Yaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggghhhh

Anyway, deep breath. One thing at a time.

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More confusion - now I have lost weight ( about a kg) as I was not well for sometime. And haven't gained that back. A big issue as per my doc. Till now everyone was after my life to follow "the diet". I have gestational diabetes for which they prescribe a diet. Its not so much about cutting down as it is about avoiding certain food items, mostly whatever you love.

Till the day before, the diet mattered. Yesterday was when the doc gave me an earful. Now everyone says, eat. To hell with the diet. Your weight is too low. Don't starve yourself, they say. But am not starving. I feel full most of the times I try to tell them. But no one is listening.

My mind cannot adjust to all this.

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Working from home is sooooooooooooo boring. Nothing to do besides work.

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This cough is making me mad. I cannot sleep on my side anymore. Someone please take this weight off me. I want to sleep on my back, which incidentally I never did much earlier, but ask someone to tell you not to do something and irrespective of whether you like it or not, you will crave for it.

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Last weekend was nice. I shopped. I like shopping when one gets everything at the same place. We bought :

3 sets of salwaar kameez - 2 for my mom to gift to me on god bharai day (she gave me money as you wont get anything as nice in Kerala), 1 for my sis in law

4 saris - for the aunts who came to visit me

Bangles from Jaipur - 2 sets of 8 bangles for me (this is even though I don't wear bangles, but I was too attracted to it), 5 sets of 2 kadas (for me, my sis, sis in law, mom, MIL), 1 set of 8 bangles for my niece.

3 pairs of pretty earrings

2 Ganeshas for home (one huge one)

New cheap curtains for my room

And I was so happy!!!!!!!!!!!

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For my god bharai 4 saris got added to my stash. Thankfully the ceremony was short and peaceful. Phew!!

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No one understands my anguish at time flying past.. least of all A. The more am trying to spend time with him, the more the no of things coming up his way / people want him to be involved in. Damn it!!


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Yesterday, watched Asianet filmfare awards for 5 mins. Dhanush came and sang Kolaveri. That guy is so down to earth. He said things like "please don't embarrass me by comparing me to any singer... not with so many great actors/ singers sitting here.. this is a hit by mistake.. " Then they made him sing the song.. he played along and said.. now you know how much technology helps people like us. Really really really sweet chap, no airs around him. I quite liked him.

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I am going to watch Agneepath next weekend. Come what may. I think it will be a hit. Everyone who is shown in the trailer looks awesome.. Hrithik Roshan, Sanjay Dutt, Priyanka Chopra. And don't you just love Chikni Chameli!!!

I loved : Sherlock Holmes, A game of shadows

Swooooooooooooooooooooooon .. and once more.. swoooooooooooooonnnnnnnnn

Isn't Robert Downey Jr the most handsome(st) person in the world. Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And the combination of Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law, the most electrifying!!

So I watched Holmes last night and I am still unable to get over it. It was just mindblowing. Brilliant.No, not the storyline, but the two gentlemen in question.

The movie is a Guy Ritchie movie, no doubt... absorbing, doesn't allow you to blink an eyelid even throughout the movie. Fast paced is too mellow a term.

As you can see I really enjoyed watching Holmes. I enjoyed the action. And believe you me, the action is nothing short of brilliant.

The storyline - well, there I had a small , a teeny thorn in my flesh. I had thought, with Moriarty coming into the picture, the movie will be much more intelligent, much more of a duel of brains than brawn. If you remove the action, the thrills, Jude Law and Robert Downey Jr, the plot kind of falls apart. It was weak, in the sense of the expectations caused due to Moriarty's presence.

Moriarty himself - ah, he was ok. When the first Sherlock Holmes movie was released, there was a lot of talk of Brad Pitt being cast in this role. And I wish he was. Though this chap was not half bad. Its just that, then it would really have been a meeting of equals!

The movie of course, out and out belonged to Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law. The music was great, just as the last time. The action much more thrilling than earlier. And then there was Stephen Fry too. What is there not to like.

I totally loved it. A must must must watch. Who cares about the "intelligent storyline".  

A new year post

Am unwell and so is A - what a great way to welcome the new year!!! Cribs aside, at least I took an off today, I slept through the day.. and I am taking an off tomorrow too. To hell with work. Right attitude isnt it!!

So all in all a good way to start the year - I mean with the right attitude. Prioritise what matters.

I do not have any resolutions for the year except not to forget myself or us (me and A) in the confusion of having a 3rd member around. I am determined not to forget myself. And by that I mean - blog, travel, read, watch movies.

Happy new year folks.


ps: This is the scared me talking!!