Tuesday, November 24, 2009

When in a crowd

I dont like crowds. I just dont. Be it in open spaces.. like a shopping street.. or at home!


I dont like going to parties / places where i dont know people. I am distinctly uncomfortable. And once i have decided i am uncomfortable, all i can think about is how to get back home quickly. It becomes literally an obsession - finding out of ways and means to get home OR get out of such engagements.

At these times, i feel like going back to being a child. At least i can raise my nose and walk off!!! Not much luck now... being an adult!! Need to smile and smile even more ....

I love my space.. cant be around people for long.. long meaning more than 2 days.. ok, this does not apply always :)

I am usually quite sociable.. i talk a fair bit.. but find it difficult to uphold things for more than a few hours!!!! But we try ... what to do... some perils of being an adult... :((

After some time, i need to be alone.. in my own home.. my own bathroom.. my own bed... my own computer.. my own everything!!!! A whiny child i am.... i know, i know..

4 comments:

The knife said...

there is nothing worse than being stuck with a group of people you don't want to be with

Scarlett said...

You're not being whiny. I know what you mean! I guess after a certain point in life, and especially if you're used to having some time alone everyday (like you & I do), you crave to be on your own, do your own thing, not have to be surrounded by people & make conversation - beyond a certain point. I completely understand.

Moonshine said...

@Knife.. Absolutely.. itis extremely difficult if frequencies do not match!! Though currently i am not in that situation.. just that too many people milling about.. 3 days over and i am only half way done..more niceties to be exchanged

@Scarlett Thanks S for the vote of confidence. I thought it was only me who had this "space" problem!!! You are so right.. we are just so very used to our own time...within 3 days, i am totally dying to get back home and into my own space!! It always happens with me...over time it becomes so difficult to share this space with anyone.. the freedom of doing whatever you want to do.. oh well such is life.. maybe i am growing old.. its becoming difficult to adjust and be flexible! Old and boorish!!

mêlée said...

i can quite understand the 'need-my-own-space thing'...and yes, part of growing adult! but i love the crowd equally..there is so much life in there that it completely amazes me and energizes me too. :) and this point none around me seems to understand...